im ur god, send me money everyday...

　　i wanna into the wild as something i did before, even i sort of know i will die alone just like alex did. somehow, one word of his always bothering me which "happiness only real when shared". i felt that very often when i was travling. the tibet, the nature forest, the snow mountain and lots of nice cities with gorgeous view. i have been that only by myself, i dont know how many times i wonder why i have to travel alone? why nobody would be my company? i want even need to share my happiness with someone beside me at the right time sometimes i just desperate for that. but it seems i have to keep all thoughts deeply in my heart. so far, i have suffered enough just cant find a way out.
　　
　　the fact is i like to stay tight and quiet, just somewhere with someone i love, i dont mind we r rich or poor, the point does matter is we happy be toghter. is it too hard to get? i dont know, the only thing i know is no that girl will live like that with me. well, why is that? actually, it comprise a lot. money is the first and most important stuff. cuz money brings security, the strong one not like love the weak one. i have to say it is ture. holy god, could u give me that guitar girl? if compare alex with me, the biggest different reason between us is he wants to tramp he makes it as his own life and i can bet the goal for him is not exactly anywhere like alaska but a hope, the faith and the experience. but i tramp for relaxing and love. so when i find my love who also love me, i will stop, i'd like give anything i have for her. if i was alex at the time with the guitar girl i will stay with her, travel with her. that's my only hope.
　　
　　"some people feel like they dont deserve love, they walk away quietly into empty spaces."
　　
　　there r two most impressive part of the movie which touched me. the first is alex was dieing in the bus lonely no one knows maybe no one will know ever. suddenly, i feel so fear about that. will that be my happy ending too???
　　
　　the second is alex was in the bar drinking with his friend they were yelling "seciety" loudly. anyway, we do have something in common, just like we both hate the fucking society very much. some of my friends advise me dont leave your parents, dont travel alone, stay and find a job just like a normal person. to be honest, i'd like to stay, but the seciety doesnt let me to. for example, i was invited to teach english in a foreign language school by the american schoolmaster, but in the interview the fucking chinese managers ask for my certificate and degree paper. although i dont have that, dont u see my quality? r u people fucking blind? it turns out, the key to open job door is some crap paper. some people say this is the reality. noboby will give opportunity to a stranger, if u dont have enough paper u must have some kind of connection. sorry, i dont have either. so u know i have to leave, tramp alone.
　　
　　by the way, i am sure the two tears of alex just before he dead were created by the director. maybe he wanna tell people alex feel regret and sadness for what he did at last. cuz as u know the whole story can be found on alex's logs but nobody can possible know what's his situation at that moment. what a shame.
　　
　　alex is a fantastic person, he amazs me. now, i feel sick of my recent life so probably i will go again. this time let god bless me. cuz i start to believe in desteny and god.
　　
　　"if u want something in life, reach out and grab it. and i will go with u."
　　
　　
　　Jimmy
　　Apr. 15th 2008

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im watching Desperate housewives in thiese days. en....season 3 i guess...the funny thing is when the  new year coming i was watch this series, include 2006 the season 1, 2007 the season 2, and now it's working again.

 

btw, i live in hangzhou now at home with my parents. looking for a new job. of course, i still wanna travel something, but i need to save more money, u have no idea.

 

the thing is im gonna visit southeast asia, like Vietnam, Laos, Combodan? i don't how to spell yet. kind of that. Who has samiliar plan just let me know ok? we may schedule a time to go together..

 

anyway, happy everyday, be well...im dieing to meet someone and drink beer right now...

 

Jimmy

I went to DaLi after KunMing stayed in Yun nan for almost a month, especially DaLi,  i was there for more than 20 days. i stayed in four season hostel there just 10 yuan for each night and DaLi is a very relaxing and lazy old city it's so free and easy to stay there. i feel very good about the city except the work stuff ,there is also no job left for me. this question always be very sad. Maybe i really need to accept the require of if i want to work in a restaurant i have to work there for one year at least but even just 400 yuan for each month.

Anyway, i made two big mistakes of this trip, the first is i should go straight to vietnam when i was in guilin but i took that night shift job in the hostel. the second is i should stay in DaLi go on to look for a job or ask friends for help but i came back home at that moment.

so now, i am at home, it's totally very bad mood at home everyday, boring and awful cuz my parents always blame me for my undergraduate. cuz all the reason of i can't find a job in china because of the degree. it's just look like in that way , actually it's the problem of the system, i have no idea.

i will look forward of go to vietnam at the moment, it seems the only way for me. who knows.

 

Jimmy in hangzhou

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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